Testing

Total Mario on this page right now. Block headed. Spending time getting over enemies only to run right into another one. 2 dimensional thinking.

I did some research on perception and consciousness last night. I'm getting stumped by my own circles lately.

I found something interesting that bridged western science to eastern medicine finally. The medical field has struggled to find recognition for the validity of eastern 'theories' when it comes to medicine. I found one last night.

In eastern thought, we all have chakras. 7 I believe. They all align down the center of our bodies, starting at our head and ending at our pelvis. We have little mini chackras else where but these are the main ones.

They found that each of them base themselves in vital organs. Our higher chakras are in our head, throat, and chest area. The one in our head obviously originates in our brain. The one in our throat focuses around our vocal cords and the one in our chest... doesn't actually center in our heart but right above it. Its a spot in our body that regulates our immune system. The reason this is interesting is because of what happens when we say 'our hearts hurt' or that we've fallen in love. In essence, when we say 'I've fallen in love with (so and so)'- we are really saying ' My immune system accepts (so and so)'. The body knows when theres something foreign and something toxic running through our systems; it attacks the problem and has an amazing way of fixing it on its own. Likewise, when we are in love, our bodies tend to be healthy. We smile more. We tend to think more positively. Our body is accepting of the other person taking over the vacancy sign in our hearts and allows for us to feel good and giddy and bright.

Some issues are too intense for nature to fix though. Some times an antibiotic or treatment of other kinds is necessary.

I've been going through the most difficult tests of my 'heart' these past few months. And oddly enough, I've been sick in one way or another this whole time. I can't help but believe that my body is showing me physical symptoms of heart break and feeling lost. I've had an off and on cold for 3 months. And even when I'm 'healthy- it's making me weaker; my workouts have been getting more and more disappointing. My skin goes through its good and horrible moments. I sleep excessively. My writing is getting drier and less potent. Almost daily I have to coax myself into believing something positive about myself exists.

I'm hoping my body will show me this many significant signs when I'm ready to start doing instead of just being. Until then, I'll be here looking for something to be proud of.