Its my turn to give up on you. I somehow gave you every chance you didn't deserve and now I'm hanging up. I've been on hold for years and every time I let you back into my life, you press buttons and annoy the fuck outta me so this time, I'm not even saying good bye. I'm ripping the phone out of the wall and throwing it away with all the memories I have of you. Its all garbage anyway.
Some day, I will reinvent the wheel. How, you might ask. Is that even possible? And I really dont have a fucking clue. I just know that some where down the road, I'm going to find an exit that takes me to brilliance and you wont be around for it. You can call all you want, leave messages and hope I call you back but I will be too far away to hear the phone ring. Purposely.
You wont be able to run back to me. You will only be able to run after me. Chase me and think back on the days you left me behind, wondering if I'd ever catch up to your lies. Thanks for that though. You taught me alot about myself. You taught me that I am worth forgetting about. And thats not right. You taught me that nice guys are taken advantage of. And thats not right. More importantly, you taught me that you aren't a necessity. You never gave me fuel or kept me company. Only wasted my time. You were just a facade. A comfortable pain. All you had for me was a place to hide, a title to go behind to feel like I have a life that matters. But even then, I didn't know you cared. I didn't even know you. You didn't even know you. And thats something I can't be a part of.
I'm hanging up now. Dont call me back. I'll leave the rest of your importance on the door step so if you ever decide you were wrong, or decide you want to apologize,
you can come wait for me.
I'll just be too far away to care.
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