Theres only a few things in life that I would argue to death about. Things that I believe so strongly in that for you or anyone to say anything to me about would be damn near equal to lighting a match around gun powder. I get serious. Real quick. So thats why I feel safe saying that

I've witnessed some events in my life. Some great, and some not so great. But by far,

the hardest, most heart wrenching, knee weakening thing to try to deal with in life is
losing someone.

I dont care who you are or what your past is or how tough and rugged you can be, you can be Waka Flocka and the loss of a close friend or a daughter would still shatter you into pieces. It doesn't matter. Nothing can accurately describe that feeling when you hear it. Its completely foreign and uncomfortable every time. You dont believe it. You question when the last time you saw them was and what you said to them and what you could have maybe, possibly done to stop them or be there for them. Its horrible. Its helpless.

Today has happened far too many times this year. 2011 has been full of extremely scary realities and its been quite deterring. I'm sick of bad drugs and losing people on behalf of them or their conclusions. Its extremely difficult to try to be okay with the that lesson. Its simple and its harsh. But all it ultimately teaches you is that:

its going to keep happening so brace yourself.

I'm sure it gets easier with time and as I age but right now, in my early twenties, that shit is tough. We shouldn't be passing away from this shit. We're still young and supposed to rage and do stupid crazy shit until were 30 and then settle down and grow up. That's how I see it. That shit just doesn't happen to us.

I have a lot of friends in scary situations right now. Whether its in the war or with their vices or what we did to our insides back in high school, theres a bunch of us. And I keep wondering who's going to be the next story.

I just saw you down the street man. I swear. I totally meant to stop over last week but I didn't and that sucks. You were one crazy unique guy. Give Jesus a high five or something cool.