I strongly advise not having regrets. And on days like Friday, February 18th, 2011... I had one of those 'Damnit, I wish I would have wrote about that' moments. There are some days I just exhaust, some days I pound on my keyboard like a boxer, and some days I just forget to focus on the things I need to.
You ever have one of those random movie watching sessions where you actually pick a movie thats totally, completely meant for you? Like it speaks to your space, where you are and what you've been going through? God, I love those. I had one earlier this week when I watched 'Blue Valentine', which was a complete heart explosion. I shouldn't have watched that on the day before V-Day, but none the less- totally made my lip quiver. Just a little while ago, I finished watching ' Its Kind of a Funny Story'. I'm pretty sure I engaged in every emotion I've ever had! For one, it dealt with an identical situation I put myself into. And two, just a cute love story. So it inspired me to write some open honest things about myself because really... I have no shame. And if I can't wear who I am out here, then I'm just naked... and thats more embarrassing in my opinion. Here I go:
1.) Yes, I was institutionalized when I was 19 for 5 days. Watch the movie I just mentioned if you want to know why/how/exactly what happened while I was in there.
2.) Not only do I sing in the shower, but I dance. Which is quite dangerous. There's just something about music and being naked that I just can't control.
3.) If you've ever lived with me, you've probably heard some attempts at beat boxing. That was me. For some reason, I convince myself I can do it. I'm probably horrible.
4.) Guilty pleasures: Jersey Shore, movies that are cry-worthy, sleeping in late, eating really really badly.
5.) I talk to my dog in a baby voice. Usually about in depth topics like the after life, how much I love her and wont give up on her, and sometimes- she licks up my tears.
6.) I've been with only 2 females. And thats completely on purpose. Is there such thing as fear of sex?
7.) I save every email from only one person. Most of them are meaningless but for me, they mean the world... still...
8.) I used to be the guy to pull his cock out at social events.
9.) I have really skinny legs. But they go fast damnit!!
10.) I manscape, and there's no reason for it other than I hate body hair.
11.) I broke a 15 year standing bench press record at my high school 5 years ago, which will remain up there FOREVER !!! thats right.
12.) I have a strong moral code that involves breaking my morals occasionally.
13.) I cut my own hair and always have and always will.
14.) You used to be a better friend to others then you were to yourself. I'm glad to see that is slowly changing.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Number 2 had me cracking up thinking about your skinny white ass dancing in the shower.
I'd like to balance the both in time. I dont want to exchange being shitty to myself for being shitty to others. Work in progress.
ReplyDeleteAnd that image was so not for you man,- thats when you skip a line. But I'm glad you got off to it.